Yuck

That is how I am feeling right  now.  Really, really, REALLY yucky.  I actually took a pregnancy  test because I am feeling very much like I did when I was pregnant with Aubrey.  And, no, I'm not expecting.  Which at this point is good as I would be very freaked out.  The reason Jed has his issues was because I was detoxing during the first month of his pregnancy.  I would hate to cause any harm to any of my other children due to detoxing.  But I'm still feeling yucky.  My head aches, my heart is beating fast and hard, it's hard to breath and the sight or thought of *any* food right now makes me want to vomit.  Not pleasant people, not pleasant.  I talked things over with my very knowledgable sister, and she thought it sounded like my body was trying to force me to fast.  I think she is right on.  When I eat I feel even worse!  As I was driving home today from the girls' science class I really felt the only thing I could handle would be broth.  But nursing and fasting do not go hand in hand.  However it is exceedingly difficult to eat.  So I have a bit of a game plan.  For at least today, if not tomorrow I will only drink broth and some cooked apple. The pectin in apples is supposed to sooth your tummy.  I figured if I was really sick, with say, the flu, I wouldn't be able to eat either, so a day or two with just broth won't kill me or the baby.  At least I hope not :-)  I just drank some broth and I don't feel worse, so this is a good step.  Only time will tell how my body copes. 

I was discussing the diet with my sister and was telling her that there is most certainly a big difference in reading about the diet and actually doing the diet.  Now, don't get me wrong.  It is essential that you read up on the diet, and other people's experiences with it.  If I were you, I would read, read and read some more.  And when you think you've read enough....read some more.  Trust me, you'll be glad you did.  But saying all that...there is just a big difference in going through this, experiencing all the various symptoms, and all the questions that go through your head.  I know we are on the right track.  After all Jed gained almost a pound in three weeks.  That is AMAZING!  Seeing as how he gained a whopping four pounds all of last year.  Now, I don't expect for him to keep up this pace, but it is a very good sign non the less.  He's eating a lot of high calorie, fat laden foods, all good for him.  He loves meat, eggs, and avocados.  He also loves anything made with coconut oil.  He loves the almonds as well.  Seriously, he's eating the best foods for his body right now, and for that I am thankful.  Even if we have to compromise with his smoothies. 

Lots to do today still.  Need to try to squeeze in school before the girls go to soccer, and I go to therapy.  The kitchen is getting out of control again.  It's pretty hard to be in there when the smell of food makes me sick.  Maybe I'll wear a clothspin on my nose :-)